my tired pain and sleepless desire

hafeez raji has added a photo to the pool:

There's too many thoughts in my head, I can't seem to grab a hold of one long enough to do anything with it. My head is a live jar of flies moving in concentric circles hoping to be free or live long enough to escape an have made a dent. I want to do this, I want to do that, I just want to do it all. I get so overwhelmed, so tired of thinking and just want to do, but when I do and I finish, I'm not happy either. Somewhere between my desires and the reality of this life is a middle I hope to accidentally fall into.